Monday, March 25, 2013

20 weeks

We finally took our first "here is my baby bumb" picture.  I decided even if I feel like a fat cow we would some day want to look back at the progression of my tummy.  Since there are about 3 people who look at this blog it was a safer place to post than facebook.  Enjoy.



I have also bought fabric for our little girl's baby blanket and have in my posession a pattern for a blessing dress.   I seriously struggle with decisions so I am pretty happy to be done picking out fabric.  However, after looking over the pattern for the dress I am feeling in over my head...dont understand 90% of the instructions.  But we shall see what happens.

Goals:  No new goals right now...need to work on the sewing projects.  Also the construction mess we have been living in for the past 2 months is almost over so my goal for April is spring cleaning (our house flooded back in January... like BAD).  It's going to take me the whole month to get the house back in order, quite literally, but I am looking forward to a dust free environment, multiple trips to DI, and organized closet spaces :)

Saturday, March 2, 2013

The 2nd Trimester

HOW I'M FEELING:
I am officially into my second trimester!!!  So excited to be feeling better and not gagging every time I get a whiff of Chris's deodorant :)

I am officially finishing my 16th week.  I have gained 7 lbs already since my pre-pregnancy weight...YIKES.  It's been a long time since I have seen such a high number on the scale and it is scary despite the fact I'm pregnant.  I am no longer unsure if my stomach looks bigger, it definitely looks bigger, but not really to the point where I could show it off and people would assume I was pregnant.  I am starting to feel like Tweedle Dee...



Exactly...if he wears the waist line on his pants below his tummy they may fall completely off.  Are you understanding my dilemma?  My church skirts are becoming very tight and again not sure what the solution is, I need help in this arena.

CRAVINGS:
I wasn't exactly sure what to expect from pregnancy cravings.  I mean, who doesn't want to eat chicken nuggets, pizza, coke, or chocolate cake for breakfast when given the option?  However I think I am definitely starting to experience some more intense food cravings than before.

Craving #1:  Olive Garden Salad
I'm usually opinionated but not too picky when it comes to going out to eat.  However last week I was unable to get Olive Garden salad off my brain...it's was like a plague upon my mind.  I was thinking about it daily.  I decided I must give in or the temptation would never go away.  Chris and I finished off the first salad bowl together.  I then asked the waitress for another.  Chris started in on his entree and I tried a bite or two of the chicken I had ordered but just could not get enough of that salad.  By the time we got dessert on the table I still had my salad plate in front of me.  Pretty sure the waitress thought I was insane when 45 minutes into our meal I was still eating salad while my entree remained virtually untouched and my dessert was pushed off to the side.  I let Chris finish my dessert while I helped myself to more salad.  By the time we left I had almost eaten the entire second salad bowl myself!  It was just so good.

Craving # 2:  Kraft Mac-N-Cheese
That's right, mac-n-cheese.  I probably haven't eaten it in about 15 years but it just popped into my head one day and I have been obsessing over it.  Chris swears I would NEVER let myself succumb to such a processed high calorie food in the past and he is 100% correct.  So yesterday after I finished working out at the gym we headed to the grocery store and I indulged myself yet again...and I must say I was NOT disappointed.  YUM...again, felt like I couldn't get enough.  Tasted just like I imagined and remembered.

UPDATE ON MY GOAL:
I'm happy to report I have gotten back into exercising and it feels great!  I started trying to jog about 4 weeks ago and it was pretty tough.  I mostly walked with intermittent jogging at 5 mph on the treadmill for about 2 miles.  I wasn't really expecting or aiming to gain much endurance since I knew I would be growing in size but none the less I have surprised myself.  Last week I was up to 3 miles jogging consistently at about 5-6 mph the whole time and feeling awesome!

NEW GOAL:
I have a second ultra sound this week as part of the research study I am participating in so we should be able to find out the baby's gender on Thursday!  We are pretty excited and I have decided to try and make a blessing outfit for the baby when I find out if it is a boy or girl.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Pregnancy Woes

I need to spend some times recording some of the ups and downs of my 1st pregnancy!  

Due Date:  Aug 11th, 2013

Currently:  11 weeks and 6 days

Things that make me sick:

  • Smells!  Suprisingly not food but other smells.  Body wash, laundry detergent, deoderant, cologne and hand soap really get my gag going.  We are in the process of moving to all things unscented.  The smell of clean bed sheets makes me want to throw up at night :(  how weird is that?
How I've been feeling:
  • Nauseated.  I haven't actually thrown up but just feel sick all the time, my stomach is constantly turning.
  • Tired.  When I get home from work I seriously debate eating dinner or just going to bed.  It's lights out at 9 pm and even that is pushing it.
  • Hungry...absolutely starving when I wake up in the morning but I seem to get full after one piece of toast.  Eating partly alleviates my nausea but usually not completely.  Thus I go grazing continually throughout the day.  The holiday's and bad weather have definitely not helped...pretty sure I've gained 10 lbs in my first trimester :(
Fun Things:
  • Taking a pregnancy test.  I didn't actually think it was going to come back positive, it had been only 1 month since we started "trying" (hate that term).  I made my self wait until at least 3 days past when I thought I should have started my period...low and behold it was positive!
  • Using the baby as my excuse for everything :)  "The baby is hungry...The baby is tired...The baby wants chinese food"  
  • First doctor's appointment.  Our first appointment was at 9 weeks, I was a little disappointed they didn't listen for the heart beat or do an ultrasound but is was all exciting just the same.  It was crazy to hear the midwife confirm that my uterus was expanding and was about the size of a pear.
  • First ultra sound.  I signed up for a research study mostly so I could see the baby on ultra sound more often.  It only consists of going to one apointment during each trimester.  We went to our first appointment at 10 weeks.  Our little peanut really was about the size and shape of a peanut  in it's shell.  3.71 cm in length with a heart rate of 160 bpm.  The baby was up to all sorts of moving around in it's "swimming pool" which is currently about 3 times as big as he/she is.
Goals:  
  • Exercise.  I have had every excuse in the book, most of which I feel are fairly legitimate, none-the-less I haven't worked out for about 3 months.  I went to the library and got some exercise DVD's since I'm afraid exercising outside in the horrible inversion will do me more harm than good.  Turns out the library was a little low on selection so I came home with
    • An Indoor Power Walking video...which after previewing I was too embarrassed to do
    • A Jillian Michaels DVD...which in my deconditioned state was ruled out for the risk of premature labor or heart attack
    • A Pregnancy Workout DVD...since I had out-voted the previous two I was forced to try this one.  I have to admit I felt a little ridiculous working out with the women on the video who were 39 weeks pregnant!  I felt even more embarrassed by the fact I was actually getting tired about 5 minutes into it.  Chris could not stop laughing which definitley did not help my attitude.  When you haven't done squats in 3 months it really gets to you!  So even though it's wasn't super intense I felt good about doing more than I have done for a long time.
  • Listen to my body a little more.  I feel very frustrated by the fact that my stomach seems to have shrunk to the size of a two year old!  I now understand why your children complain that they are starving and as soon as you give in and buy them the outrageously over priced $7.00 hamburger at the rodeo they only eat about 3 bites before they are done.  They really do have tiny little stomachs that probaly need 6 miniature meals a day rather than 3 large meals a day.  This is exactly how I've felt.  Starving...but as soon as I sit down to eat dinner I am full before I'm half way through my meal.  Yet unlike a two year old I continue eating,  (a) because I was looking forward to this delicious meal, and (b) because I feel like I should be able to eat more.  This is no bueno and probably a huge part of my bloating at this point.  Besides I feel so uncomfortable after I force myself to eat more than my body wanted.
Other random thoughts:
  • I now understand why some women post pregancy pictures and why some don't.  When you don't have a flat stomach to begin with there is nothing cute about looking extra bloated in a photo.  I am already in fear of having a baby shower in which all my friends gather together to behold the beached whale right before it pops open!
Note to baby:  We do not blame you for any of the above and know you will be worth all of your mother's woes in the end.  

Monday, September 3, 2012

This one's for Cassidy: Part 3

After a long and grueling 5 mile trek Cassidy and I finally made it to the first of only two aid stations on the course.  I quickly guzzled an entire water bottle, refilled my water, and shoved a few pieces of watermelon into my mouth.  I was about to leave and noticed Cassidy looking semi-bewildered.  I decided to say something, after all she was only 11 yr old.

Me:  "Ready to go?"

Cassidy: "Yeah, I just need to fill my water bottle."

I now felt obligated to wait for her. I waited another 30 seconds and we started jogging again.  The flat terrain soon started climbing once again.  Feeling re-energized I powered up the hill leaving Cassidy behind who had now started walking.  I figured that was the end of Cassidy, it had worked out that we were pacing each other for a few miles but I was still running my own race.

A few minutes later the trail ran through a downhill stretch and pretty soon Cassidy came blazing past me.  Cassidy and I were no longer running side by side, I gained distance on the uphill and Cassidy passed me on the down hill streches.  It seemed rather silly to yo-yo and Cassidy started making small talk again so I slowed my pace on the uphill so she could keep up.  Eventually there was no more down hill, we had started our assent up "Windy Peak". 

We were back to hiking but I was still feeling refreshed and going at a brisk pace...until I felt a little hand grab the back of my arm.

Cassidy: "You're going too fast"

Me: "Oh, uh...sorry?" 

Apparently I had made an unspoken committment?  No big deal, she was pretty much keeping up at this point.  We kept hiking but I could tell Cassidy was getting tired.  She soon asked me if we could stop for a minute.  I'll admit I was not completely thrilled about stopping for a break when I didn't need one but what was an extra 30 seconds at this point.  I stopped.

We started back up but within a few minutes we were stopped again.  I started getting a little frustrated inside, I just want to get this darn race over with...how did I get stuck baby sitting the 11 yr old.  Call me a "softy" but I didn't feel right about ditching an 11year old.  We stopped several more times and hiked at a semi-excruciatingly slow pace being passed by other runners. 

Cassidy was now quite the chatter box telling me about all the other races she had run, what her dad does for a living, where they were staying after the race, etc.  She promptly informed me when I was going too fast and insisting we walk up any sort of incline if only for 7-8 feet.  Cassidy pulled me to slow down and I pushed her to keep up.  At one point Cassidy grabbed my arm and leaned her head on my shoulder as we walked, "I'm sooooooo tired."  I was a little taken back at how comfortable she had become with me and felt a little guilty about wanting to leave her behind in order to save myself 20 minutes on an already crappy race time. 

We soon made it to the top of Windy Peak and I was confident our pace would soon quicken as Cassidy loved barreling down-hill.  Yet I had underestimated just how tired this little girl was.  "Let's keep going, don't stop now, " I tried to encourage.  A lean guy with leathery looking sun tanned skin caught up with us.  " Daddy!" Cassidy screamed.  Yes...I was off the hook now.  "Daddy can I run with you?"  Cassidy asked.  "If you can keep up.  Just focus on running your own race Cass" her father replied.

You have got to be kidding me!!!!  I have been dragging your 11 year old up this mountain for the last 2 hours but you're not willing to run last last 2 miles with her?  What a joke.  I decided to make a dash for it.  I figured if I ran fast enough down the mountain I could leave Cassidy while she was still with her dad, hence not really ditching her.  I would leave the ditching entirely up to her father.  I was handing her off in my mind, and I was totally fine with that. 

I took off down the mountain trying to take advantage of my short window of opportunity.  Perhaps the universe was trying to scold me for my selfish decision because I suddenly caught my foot on a rock.  I was going down!  As if watching myself in slow motion I could see my face and hands were about to become raw hamburger.  Wait, my animal instincts were kicking in, my legs were catching up!  Woah, a little too fast! In order to catch my balance my legs had to catch up with my torso and I was now barrelling out of control down a very steep hill.  This was not going to end well.

Well, it did end well :)  Somehow I was able to regain control.  Cassidy and her dad had watched the whole thing and were applauding me for a 10 out of 10 on my recovery.  In addition I finally started to gain some ground on Cassidy and her dad.  Before I knew it I was completely on my own, not another runner in sight and I was maintaining a pretty good pace too!  Afterall I had to maintain headway on my little compadre. 

I eventually ran into Chris who had stopped to wait up for me. We ran the last mile and a half together and I told him stories of my new little friend.  I was able to cheer Cassidy accross the finish line and my guilty conscious was relieved to see her cross the finish line hand in hand with her dad.  It took me 3 1/2 hours to complete the 12 mile trail run and although I felt tied down by my little compadre at times, she also kept me going.  I enjoyed the distraction and the quicky circumstances made for a good story.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

This one's for Cassidy: Part 2




After a few miles I finally caught onto this trail running business…it’s called hiking.  Well sort of.  Uphill stretches, unless fairly short and boulder free, are hiked at a brisk pace.  Flat and down hill stretches are jogged.  I soon settled into a rhythm realizing I would be out on the trails much longer than originally anticipated.  Being a very small event I soon found myself in complete solitude among the forest trees.  It was almost a little unsettling to be completely alone in the middle of the forest. I actually considered sitting down and waiting for my mom to catch up.  After all the first rule of safe hiking is not to go alone right?

Well, perhaps I misspoke.  Alone except for one other visible runner about 20 feet in front of me.  It was a little girl, outfitted with a purple trail running fanny pack and pink visor.  Besides us there was not another visible life form in sight.  She seemed to be keenly aware of my presence and determined to keep her 20 ft lead on me.  Any time I started to jog she would tune into the audible change in my pace and start to run.  We continued to run/hike in this unspoken but clearly coordinated fashion for a few miles before curiosity got the best of me.

I was slightly embarrassed to barely be keeping pace with probably the youngest racer in the event. Despite my advanced degree in the field of Exercise Science, I foolishly felt like my previous running experience, although a good 3 years in the past, would have had more carry-over to this event.  I wanted to know how young my competitor was…I had to know!  Besides, if the next 2 hours was going to carry on this way I may as well strike up a conversation with the little runner. 

Me: “So uh, how old are you?”

Little Runner: “Eleven.”

Me: “Wow, I am impressed!  I never did anything like this when I was your age.”

Little Runner:  “Yeah.”

Me:  “Is this your first time doing this race?”

Little Runner:  “Yeah.”

Me:  “Cool, this is my first trail run too.  It’s a lot harder than I expected.”

Our conversation carried on this way for a while, me asking general questions and the Little Runner providing brief responses to the friendly stranger.  Neither of us felt the need to exchange names as this point. We were both just enjoying the distraction of commiserating over our circumstances together.  I figured our paces would eventually differ and one of us would drop off behind the other until it was no longer reasonable to keep talking. 
The Little Runner eventually became more relaxed.  As we settled into a rhythm together she began to volunteer more information about herself. Her father was running in the 30-mile race and her step mom the 7-mile.  I was a little shocked they would leave their eleven year old to fend for herself on a 3 hour trail run through the forest, but then again she had experience running and could find support stations along the way.

Stay tuned for more on the Little Runner and our ascent up Windy Peak!


Thursday, June 14, 2012

This one's for Cassidy: Part 1


I have abandoned my blog.
I’ve turned into a bitter shriveled prune
I’ve lost all humor, wit, and zeal  

I’ve not yet figured out how to share hospital experiences without violating HIPAA (although I really should share my experiences with rectal tubes) J Yet in my miserable pseudo intellectual career/life I find glimmers of hope

Hope that school will soon end
Hope that an employer will deem me worthy of hire
Hope that I will not accidentally kill a patient my first year on the job
Hope that I will one day bear children

But this is not about my miserable existence; this post is a dedication to Cassidy, my 11 year old compadre.  You see, back in January, in the midst of absolute frustration with school and work, I decided to bite the proverbial bullet and sign up for a race.  The Golden Gate Dirty Thirty, a backcountry trail run in the mountains of Colorado (except I was only signing up for the 12 mile trail run…not the 30).  Now you have to understand my concerns at the time…TIME!  No time to sleep, eat, study, void, etc.  Where would I find the time to run??  Yet I decided that I would no longer leave my life in the hands of an evil socialist dictator (school/work) but I would take control and force myself to enjoy the finer side of life (paying too much money to go run in the woods with a bunch of hippies).

Anyhow, I somehow mustered up the energy to “train”.  I shall use the term loosely as I never ran more than twice per week.  However I was quite proud of my effort, as it is more than I have done in the past 3 years.  My longest run was only 9 miles, but considering I had run a dozen or so half marathons in the past, I figured I could bust it out.

Well, I couldn’t have been more sorely mistaken!  If you’ve ever done a true backcountry trail run you’ll know that they are not comparable to any type of road race.  I probably could have figured that out pretty easily by checking out these trail photos on their website, but that would have been far too easy. J

The morning started out with the usual pre-race jitters, concomitant feelings of dread, excitement, anxiety, and four trips to the Port-a-John.  Talking with my brother I was informed that the trail, which started out on a dirt road, would soon become a single tract trail. 

Me, being my egotistical self, was fearful of getting stuck behind a bunch of slow trail walkers once we hit the single track.  Being a natural problem solver J I did the only rational thing I could think of…I positioned myself in front of the whole pack of runners at the starting line. When the gun went off I sprinted to secure a position in the lead. 

Within a ¼ mile I was panting for air…after all we were at an altitude of 9,000 ft and running uphill.  Between dry heaves, I soon realized what an idiot I was. Now I would be holding up every runner behind me as soon as we hit the single tract.  I desperately tried to maintain a jog but quickly had to stop and walk as my throat was slowly constricting and it was taking every ounce of energy to keep my breakfast down.  Finally I just stepped off the trail, humiliated as dozens of runners passed me by.

To be continued…since I’m supposed to be doing homework.  Stay tuned to hear more on Cassidy and the end of my 12 mile expedition.





Monday, January 30, 2012

Nun-chuck skills, bow hunting skills, computer hacking skills



Hopefully you are catching my Napolean Dynamite references. Girls only want guys with good skills! Perhaps Chris married me for my awesome dinner making skills. Let me explain, it's not about just making dinner. It's about being too lazy to go to the store even when our pantry and kitchen are seemingly empty. Don't know why I hate it so much, I just do. Perhaps it's the fact that dinner takes enough of my time, preparing, eating, and cleaning up. Ugh...I was not cut out for this. That is when the skill and creativity come into play. What can a I make with pickled jalapenos, ketchup, cottage cheese, and a few brown banana's.

Nothing right? Yes, acutally I don't think I could make anything with that set of ingredients. Luckily I had just a few other things to combine with the pickled jalapenos; two cans of black beans, a purple onion, and a few key spices (minced garlic, cider vinegar, chili powder, salt, pepper, and cayenne pepper). Simmer everything together in a pan for an hour and serve with some left over grated cheese and sour cream. Delish.

I pride myself on my skillz :)